Have you ever thought of something, and then just keep thinking about it, and by the time you actually want to act on it you're thought is "Well, I can't do it now! Now it's just too awkward!" Like... when someone mispronounces your name, and you don't correct them and then all of a sudden it's been way too long for you to correct them? Yeah... that's how I've felt about blogging for the past three months. At first, it was just a little break. Just a small "Well, we need some personal time." .... Then it was "Well, there's not too much to share..." followed by, "I don't really think that's anyone's business but ours..." and then the "Do I even remember how to blog??" So.... after three (yes folks, THREE) whole months of not blogging I'm back!!
And I have to say, it feels awesome!! 2013 is going to be a FABULOUS year for us on so many levels. So many things already in motion that we're just over the moon about. But before I delve forward, I'll fill you in on a little of what's been going on over the last three months.
First off, the end of the year, for me and most couples struggling with infertility, is always a rough time. This one hit me particularly hard. Gong-show depression. In almost 5 years TTC I have to say it was absolutely the worst it's been. Late fall of 2012, not only was I looking forward to 2013 at my 5th wedding anniversary meaning 5 years TTC with not a baby to show for it, my 30th birthday, and about 3,000 pregnancy announcements that flooded in from all directions. (Also, Small PSA: Stop announcing pregnancies at Christmas Parties, people. Every year I get way too many emails from infertile couples about how much harder it makes an already hard time of year. I've been victim to this three out of 5 years, and one was *during* a miscarriage. Seriously, worst way to tell someone who's suffering with infertility you're expecting! The entire infertility community would really appreciate if we could put an end ot this!)
Thankfully, not all people are that thoughtless and two of the announcements we got we were actually really excited about! This June my sister is expecting her third little bambino and my best friend is expecting her 1st! It's easy for me to be over the moon about these two pregnancies because not only do both of these women mean the world to me, they were so sensitive in the way they told me, and respected the fact that the news might be hard for me to hear. I also want to take a second to just give a shout out to my bestie; I don't use other people's names on my blog to respect their privacy, but I flippin' love you! Not only have I loved being there for you and sharing in the joy of your pregnancy thus far, you've made our journey so much easier in these last few months. Just having people in our lives who really believe in us, our ability to conceive, and our ability to be great parents without "helpful suggestions" on how to acheive it, has meant more to us than you'll ever know. It's not even something I really realized how much I needed, because I've never had that until we started sharing more about trying to conceive and pregnancy! Before I get all sappy, I'll just end on we love you, and you guys are amazing!!
And now some snapshots of some of the great things that have been keeping us busy over the last few months: A family wedding, family snuggles with the littles, and a trip across the American Southwest falling in love with the desert and eachother, more every day!