We're on a six-week path to eat more whole foods, guided by one simple rule: Buy foods with six ingredients or fewer. And we're blogging about our journey on the way.
This week we're answering the question: Why do you want to participate in the Six Ingredient Challenge?
To join in the Six Ingredient Challenge anytime during the six weeks, visit the sign-up page for a list of posts and to link up!
Why do I want to participate in the Six Ingredient Challenge? Well, truth be told, I've been eating this way since the begining of the year. In fact, at the begining of the year I made quite a few changes in terms of diet and excersize. As I wrote previously, the end of the year is always so tough for those struggling with infertility. The end of 2012 was no exception. My husband and I spent a blissful week and a half in the desert of the American Southwest. Both there, and when we came back I enjoyed myself plenty, getting my full share of yummy sweets, heavy meals, and ofcourse what holiday is complete without sharing a bottle or three of wine??
Well, on New Years Day I had coffee with M (The Bestie), and mentioned to her that I didn't know what the heck was wrong with me? I had no idea why I was being so liberal with my diet and wine consumption when our vacation fell during and after my ovulation - meaning, there was a chance I could have been pregnant. Now, before you get all up on your high horse (ohh, I can feel the comments pouring in already...) Let me just remind you that millions of women do this all the time, when they are lucky enough to get pregnant without planning, as they're often unaware of the exact day they ovulate. Knowing these things and how to read your body like a book whether you want to or not, is just another blessing of infertility. I told M that I felt like garbage for treating my body like this, but at the same time, I've had months and months in the last 5 years where Hubs and I did everything perfect. Not a calorie out of place, not a morself of junk food or drop of alcohol, fertility herbs and supplements that taste like dirt, and god knows what else... We were perfect, and we still didn't have the results that so many other couples fall into after a sloppy night of Merlot and Mac N' Cheese. I guess I had just had enough of doing everything right all the time, and was venting these frustrations both about the situation, and about myself and my carelessness to M.
And just like that, without judgement, without any scolding very matter of factly M said to me "Maybe it's because you're still holding on to some resentment." Looking back, obviously, I was resentful. I didn't even realize that I still was. I went home and just kept thinking about what M said, and knew she was right. I also knew it wasn't something that I could just stop over night, but it was something I could do something about over night. And that was that. It was all I needed to hear to realize that 1) I was holding on to resentment that I had thought I'd let go of, and 2) That resentment was harming no one but me, and only taking me further away from my dreams of a family.
So that night, January 1st, I had decided to give up alcohol at least until my birthday in March. I've now decided that I will actually be taking the entire year off of alcohol, with the exception of a glass of Champagne each on my Birthday and Anniversary this year as I'm turning 30, and we're celebrating 5 years of marriage. I feel both of those occasions call for a little bit of bubbly. I also booked in again to see my Acupuncturist, whom I love dearly! She is also quite a bit of a nutrition god, and suggested an "Endo Diet" to manage my endometriosis - basically a Gluten Free, Sugar Free, and Dairy Free diet. I will say, she guided me to adapt this to suit me and my lifestyle, so I have decided to take this as Gluten Free, Sugar Free and Dairy Reduced. As I've been adjusting to the new diet, I saw this wonderful 6 Ingredient Challenge pop up by two of my dearest friends and lovely ladies; Amy of Anktangle and Lauren of Hobo Mama. So, here I am to blog away the journey over the next 6 weeks!
The last change I made was getting back in to running. Just before the IVF I was running quite a bit, but was told to stop during the treatments, and never found the motivation to put my running shoes back on. Since January 1st this year, I've been running at least 6k a day, getting up to 13k on the weekends. I found this time to just focus on me, think about the good I'm doing for my body and for our future baby to be truly blissful. I always feel so connected both to myself, and to our future child after each run.
Through these changes, slowly, I am letting the resentment go. It is absolutely a day to day task. A reminder to myself, that my resentment is not felt by anyone other than myself. I truly believe our child will choose the time and way in which s/he will join us as much as we are choosing to be ready for him or her. So, with these new changes, I welcome our baby in to our life, and hope that they can feel the love their father and I have for them. I pray that this love and light that I have been carrying in my heart for the last 5 years spreads through my body and outshines and replaces any negativity, doubt, fear, and resentment. I make the choice to not have any room for any of that. I choose to only have room in my heart mind and body, for love, life, and light.
Disclaimer: For the 6 Ingredient Challenge, Amy and Lauren give guidance on how to handle dining out etc. with the challenge. On Friday of this week, my husband and I will be heading out of town for at least two nights, for me to have surgery. (Post regarding this coming on Wednesday!) While we will be eating as healthy as possible, and sticking to the rest of our new diet, we won't be worrying about the number of ingredients in our meals while we're away.